blast from the past

sometimes when u have time for yourself, it feels so great..
being a single is not bad but not lonely...
enjoying ME time is needed, have to do sometimes to recharge and re-think..

so now i am trying to relax, listen to my favorite songs from GLEE (best series 2009), open my pinky laptop, connect to internet, and my mind flying away with nice songs and imagination..

so many things across my mind, from my short plan, my long term plan, my life, my chat since last week when i met my ex bf (he still asked me why i let him down by saying No when he proposed to me), and thinking about someone else too, my new one who is with me now and we are ready to take one step by having holiday together

i got reflection, its like blast from the past when my ex bf asked me the same question.. ohh i wish i had a time machine then i would say YES to him... i have answered him honestly and seems like we have to start all over again..

i just cant say no to him this time but i also cant say yes to him cause someone who really care and fall for me is waiting for my answer too..

i know, in some point i have to stop and choose and decide... i know thats....
and as my best friends always said "compromise Tari, u can do 100% u like, just compromise and you will accept him they way he is.."

i will take my decision soon, and hopefully my decision is best for me and him and without hurting someone else...